I have kept alot of my life private this past year. It's been really hard to keep it all to myself and my most trusted friends and family. Writing helps, Sharing helps, but NO ONE likes to hear that things are really messed up. Even those trusted friends get tired of it.
This past year has been a crazy ride.
A lot of things happened that I did not cause but I had to fix..... because I have two wonderful children to take care of. I have wondered if I would still be living in this house in a week, in a month, in a year... I still don't know.
I have said the words, "I'm done asking you to change. I'm not holding you up any more."
There were some really bad times and I am sure that translated into some weird vibes here on the blog from time to time.
My mind has changed and I look at my day to day differently now. I don't know what the future will bring, but I know that I am capable of anything I need to do and I am happy in myself.
I started a second job in January of 2010. It was a huge change for me and a really big learning experience. It was hard to let go of the routine I had working on my own business, but I love the freedom I feel in helping my brother realize his business goals.
I am very happy in my work here with Artisan Clay. I feel really really good about how things are going. I am so thankful for every one of you who has helped encourage me in my work. Your kind words mean so much to me. I love the people I have "met" here and I wish I had the time to blog everyday and keep up with all of you. As it is now I usually steal a few minutes late at night and read up on a few blogs each week. This is such a wonderful community. Of course I also love seeing the beads I make finding their way into happy homes.
I feel that I made a really big improvement in my outlook this year. I feel like I have been able to let go of "ego" a bit. I have been able to change my perception of the world and people in it and improve my well being. That's huge! I mean really! My outlook is so much better.
Anyway... that's some personal stuff, yeeeesh. I hope it's OK to vent. I thank you for your support this past year, and I am very excited for the future.
Its hard I know, and believe me I know. I dont know what your going thru but my thoughts are with you Kristie! I hope that helps bc I care too...May we all receive the very best in 2011! ox
ReplyDeleteI love being a part of your on-line world and would love to reach out and give you virtual hugs when you need them (or sit across the table and drink a glass of wine and scream about things! haaaaaaa) Congrats on your personal growth and cheers to a fantastic 2011!!
ReplyDeleteI too have found it hard lately to steel the time to read and be part of the bead blogger's community... but isn't it a blessing when we can! Wishing you the best new year that showers you with amazing blessings!
ReplyDeleteHugs to you. I'm glad you have found a happier outlook because that can bring so much peace in itself. I hope every aspect of 2011 is better for you, no matter which roof you're sleeping under or where you are working!
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year Kristie. Love your spirit and your blog and your work. Have a wonderful year.
ReplyDeleteI think Winston Churchill said " I am an optimist, there doesn't seem much use in being anything else". I mean really. This past year I could have curled up into a ball and just petrified. But we don't. We can't. And good for us. We just keep pushing through. What else is there?
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